Ecosalon: The Green Gathering

My father went home and made a nonsencial fight with my mom then went away…

Sometimes I fell in despair, facing the night sky,asked myself again and again :”Will I be able to change the current situation?And when?” I’m tired of this kind of life.Every time I was down ,I feel like a shoulder to lean on.But I have never asked someone for help.Will somebody understand,will it be necessary?I doubt.Gradually I learned :The pain should and only can be cured of by myself…Fortunately,I’ll be all right soon .

However,I felt so sorry for my mom.Because of me,she bore so much pain.If I was a boy,my mom would never be overlooked by my grandparents and the illegitimate son may never be born !

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There lies a mountain between me and my father.There lies a mountain between me and my grandparents.They thought girls of nothing.They believe:A girl won’t be superior to a boy…
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Whatever they say and whatever they thought means nothing to me now,for I know :There lies a mountain between us,we have different valus and we live in different world.

Group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university professor. The conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and in life. Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups – porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite – telling them to help themselves to the coffee.

When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said:

“If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress.

“What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups and were eyeing each other’s cups.

Now consider this: Life is the coffee and the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, and do not change the quality of Life. Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee God has provided. So, don’t let the cups drive you … enjoy the coffee instead.”

If good friends fell from the sky like raindrops,I’d turn my umbrella upside down and have all that I need.

But friends do not come to us that way,instead they shoot up through the ground from a tiny seed of common interest, are cultivated with good times and grow into a beautiful flower to enjoy that continues to bloom as long as it is cared for.

These flowers of friendship are gathered into a fragrant bouquet that enhances the world around us and are meant to be enjoyed by ourselves as well as to bring cheer or comfort to others.

Like flowers, friendships also go through changes,sometimes they are allowed to die, but if you care for them well and tend them with a gentle touch, they will continue to build roots in new places and bloom for years of enjoyment.

When you have found a friend such as this,you will know by the beauty and fragrance that surrounds your life and it will spread like beautiful wildflowers to enrich all of us.

It seems one or two new colleagues are going to join us this week. At last, I can have more people working around.

You can hardly imagine the life I’m having these days! With no one to talk and nothing progressive to do. But as all guys in the trade of foreign business know, the only way to succeed is to persist. So, for so many times, I persuaded myself to just continue and be positive once in a while. I know rarely have I been active and keen to the job I’m taking, but anyway, it was totally a wrong way of doing things.

Sometimes I don’t know how to communicate with and follow up the customers. It seems my passion would be bruthly cooled down by days of newsless or prolonged way of achieving fruitful results. Especially in this period of time, we would shake off the self-contempt and retreat to the shield of financial crisis. I would somewhat relieve the pressure of being incapable while some people complain about the difficult economic situations all around the western world.

I know there are many guys like me. We are at a loss and being fidgety from time to time; we don’t know whether it’s a right choice to get a job for foreign trade, and being ignorant of what the futrue will be…

It has been about two years since I graduated from college. But till now, I always bother myself with the thought of acheived nothing. All right, let it be, I should first of all make the most of what I am doing now,

7.spring

Springtime now! When I wake up in the morning, I will hear birds chanting in the fresh air and see the window glittering in the morning sunshine. It is a refreshing time for me and all the creatures in the world. The flowers bloom and trees sprouts. It is all after the rainy season that we found the whole world has put on new verdant coats. How lovely the world is!

Now when I wake up to each new day, I would ask myself of what should I do in the new days that is coming. It seems that I was wasting my time in the past year without doing anything worthwhile. So maybe, or absolutely, I should do my best to the job I’m taking and never think about retreat when in trouble.

Okay, to better enjoy this delicate spring, I would take a short travel with my friend this weekend. I am poor, but I can enjoy the simple and meaningful life at least. May all our lives be filled with cheer and happiness.

No update for about a whole month. I used to think these May days would be fully occupied by busy work. But till now, I only know the trivials get me upset. Gradually, I resumed the feeling of just getting by with the stupid days with no break-through. How can I be so dull?

This morning I happen to read an article of someone unknown. My dear God, fine words and flowing depiction. Damn, I don’t know how to describe…

I swear, I will study English and learn more from today on.

Today is the last day of May. Five months, nearly half a year has passed for 2009. How time flies!

Just about a few months ago, I told myself to grasp every chance and every day to do something worth memoring. And I left YC for Suncia, I was then overjoyed to know Allen was back here. But later without accessing to the internet, I found myself being cooped and isolated from the outside world. Two months later, I packed up my goods and for another time, on my way for new job. For me It was a torturing year, I longed for change and gains while ended up in blankness. The most pitiful thing is, till now I’ve not been able to see allen again since he left one and a half years ago.

Later, I found myself idling away in my new job. I do not know why, why I chose to be in the field of foreign business. I still remeber when I was in college, I sajd to myself solemnly that i would never get a job with foreign trade. Anyway, all thoughts trail away when it was time for job searching. Then one day, I was plunged in the troop of sales dealing with foreign business. But anyhow, two years later after my graduation, I still do not know how can I get on with my job. Every time I change a job, I was thinking about taking up a new job other than foreign trade, but at last, I never go in accord with my mind. Simply because I do not know what else can I do.

You may sniffs at my weakness, so am I. I hate the feeling of relating the situation time after time without any hint of upbeat. Everytime I try to jot down sth quietly, unrest dogged. Suppose it’s better to pour out whatever in my mind and have it refreshed in the peaceful night. So just allow me to take down anything uneasy and annoying.

Time for bed! Just hope tomorrow I can wake up to the new day, and brush my dreams of nights away. Bravo!

Yesterday I suddenly resumed the thought of change my current job or industry to another one.
But I won’t get it in a hurry. I should first of all, learn to obtain more konwledge and get improved in this regard.

I was so glad when I realized I can have another life to live. I can discard what I’m doing now and never be upset about these silly matters any more. I can be actuated by high ideals and have my long-dreamed life come true. Life would be more beautiful then… I can do what I longed for ever after…

Hah-hah, but it is still a dream now. I should learn to persist in and hold tight to what I’ve thought.
Then there is possibility for the realization.

So just work hard and learn hard.
You will get what you want in time.

Suddenly I recall the slogan on the wall: Off you go with the light. The first apperance of these slogans in classrooms really perplexed me. I was then pondering on how could the sentence appeared so and was only half-certain of their correctness after the explanation of Mr W. But today an imitated line flashes into my mind: off you go with the wind.

This morning I know a friend has just left for GX and will be there for at least two months. I suddenly come to see there is absolutely a long distance between us. Then from today on, there is little or no possibility for us to meet again. I had the same or even stronger feeling two years before when he first left to GD.

It has rained for more than half a month here. The typhoon has just gone accross this wind-frequent land last night. But in spite of the long-lasting rain, I didn’t feel its arrival ’cause the wind here was not so strong. Just a little bit worried about the goods about to ship in a few days, what if the products grow mould and become humid in customer’s warehouse.

My mind just straied away to elsewhere and do not know how to proceed. Now I can feel it is much warmer outside since I’m now sweating. Though we’re longing for fine sunny days, I still hope the rain would stay much longer to bring me a good mood while enjoying the cool.

In these cool days, one of my beloved golden fishes died. Alas, the lonely creature left in the fish jar must be hopeless. Then upon the next sunny day, I will release her to the river nearby. Hope she can live well in the somewhat dirty water ever after.

I don’t know what I wanna do
Aimless and lost right now
Busy in the past days
With actually some trivials
The only word I can think of is
Ridiculous, you the silly, Melody
Missing in the routine life
Forget the goals you just set
No wonder every thing goes the opposite way
You want it to be
Remember
No one can help you except yourself
Come and brush the haze away
You do can

Bankers, industrialists and London’s mayor have fiercely rejected Lord Turner’s argument that Britain’s “swollen” banking industry was destabilising the economy and needed to be cut down to size.
The backlash came a day after the chairman of the Financial Services Authority said the City watchdog should be “very, very wary of seeing the competitiveness of London as a major aim”.
He also floated the idea of higher capital reserve requirements and a global Tobin tax on financial transactions to choke off some of the banks’ “socially useless” activity.
Lord Turner’s critics said he had overstepped his remit as a regulator and risked damaging London’s standing as Europe’s leading financial centre.
Stuart Fraser, chairman of policy at the City of London Corporation, said Lord Turner was playing into the hands of rival financial capitals, such as Frankfurt or Paris. “Other centres would dearly love to have business from London. If we want to shoot ourselves in the foot, they would be delighted to take the business,” he said.
Boris Johnson, the London mayor, said anybody who did not believe the FSA’s responsibilities included protecting the international competitiveness of the City was “crackers”.
US bankers also opposed the idea of a global transaction tax. “We vigorously oppose a tax on the industry,” said Scott Talbott, head of government affairs at the Financial Services Roundtable, which represents the top 97 US institutions.